And it's been a while 
since I could hold 
my head up high 

And it's been a while 
since I first saw you 
And it's been a while 
since I could stand on 

my own two feet again 
And it's been a while 
since I could call you 
And everything 

I can remember 
Is f****d up as it 
always seemed 
The consequences 

that are rendered 
I stretched myself 
beyond my means 
And it's been a while 

since I couldn't say that 
I wasn't addicted and 
It's been a while 
since I couldn't say I 

loved myself as well and 
It's been a while 
since I've gone and 
f****d things up 

just like I always do 
And it's been a while but 
all that sh*t seems 
to disappear 

when I'm with you 
And everything 
I can remember 
Is f****d up as it 

always seemed 
The consequences 
that are rendered 
I'm gonna f**k things 

up again, again.... 
Why must I feel this way 
Just make this go away 
Just one more 

peaceful day 
And it's been a while 
since I could 
look at myself straight 

And it's been a while 
since I said I'm sorry 
And it's been a while 
since I've seen the way 

the candles light your face 
And it's been a while 
but I can still remember 
just the way you taste 

And everything 
I can remember 
Is f****d up as it 
always seemed 

To me I know this place 
But can I blame 
this on my father 
He did the best 

he could for me 
And it's been a while 
since I could hold 
my head up high 

And it's been a while 
since I said I'm sorry